Dear friend, although i do not know exactly what happen in your relationship life, or maybe i should not know, in any case, i really want to see you smiling from the bottom of your heart in your everyday life. You're really one person that always put others needs, or even wants above yourself. You rather keep everything deep inside your heart, then to pour out and allow others to share your burden together with you, because you don't want others to worry for you. But you know, you friends here are more than willing to listen to you, and to give you advice (: most importantly, we're more than willing to offer our presence to you. I may not be someone you'll choose to talk with of your deepest problem, but opening up to someone whom you're comfortable with is definitely better than bottling up everything to yourself. At least saying it out will make you feel better darling.
Love, Qian.
Yesterday, as i was doing my qt, God really struck me real hard of this verse 1corinthian 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoyces with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perserves.
A wake up call for me. Well, God didn't exactly speak to me about my love for Him, neither His love for me, but an unexpected one, my love for His people, His people that He gave it to me to take care. I always had thought i had love my lg enough, i had love my sheep enough and even my leaders enough. But after this post, no man! I sucks so much at loving people, i realise i DON'T love them as much as i thought, and even as much as i SHOULD! It was something so painful for me to take it. So much time i had given them, so much of my presence, so much of my finance..i thought all these, are enough. But, yesterday, i had to raise both of my hands and surrender and say 'i do not know how to love, God, you gotta teach me how to love!' It was such a great time spent with my beloved saviour yesterday =) Got more to catch up with!
A great day spent with great people today! Lunch with some of my besties and create joke out of the 1 hour we spent together! Whoo! Tomorrow will be another great day that i entrust to my Lord! (:
Monday, July 12, 2010, 4:07 PM
